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10th-Sep-2002 02:24 am
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LJ just ate what I had typed out dammit.

One year of this account is 9-12, although my first post didn't go up until 9-13. What I had to say still rings true now. I have done what I can, I gave blood, and I prayed. I gave comfort to my friends, I didn't comment on the plethora of stinky poetry that got posted to my various Yahoogroups the following week, because I knew that it was an expression of emotion at an event people are still trying to comprehend.
Hell, I'm still trying to comprehend the aftermath. The way I see it, the terroists got their wish. We've quietly accepted the lessening of our rights for a feeling of security. To some degree, I think we've become more intolerant of people who don't think like us. But again, we still mourn. My mother once told me about December 7th, 1941, and I think we are in a similar place now as we were then. The difference being we had a clear enemy in WW II. Now, to me at least, it seems like everything is a shade of gray. Yes, I'm mad as hell someone used an airplane as a weapon of mass destruction. but blaming their religion as a whole is bullshit. Yes, I disagree with the way they interpret their holy book, but I also disagree with the way others interpret other holy books of their given religion. I really don't believe Jesus was messiah. I don't believe he's coming back, unless there is such a thing as reincarnation. I don't believe loving someone of the same sex, or loving someone in general is a horrible sin. All of us, myself included, have probably at some point used our beliefs to justify fear and predjudice.
Fuck. I said I wasn't going to get like this tonight. The original thought was something along the lines of the farther away the event, the less real it seems. Or the less meaning it has for the observer. My father died nearly 20 years ago. December 2nd used to be this big day of mourning for me. Now, half the time, I forget the signifigance altogether. 5-17-97 was the last time I saw a man I sometimes think of as the closest thing I have to a soulmate. The only reason I remember the date is an old fading journal entry I made the next day. All things fade over time. I think it's quite possibly the only reason we remain sane rational beings.

Great, I guess it's my week to be the ray of darkness.

Hugs to all my homies. May joy and peace find you.

James
Comments 
10th-Sep-2002 07:41 pm (UTC)
Of course we will never forget, but I believe we must and should move on and quite yakking about it. I believe the economy and the mind is hurt by this constant rambling on and on in the media.People are beginning to again show fear, and this hurts us as a nation. That is exactly what the bastards had in mind!!
10th-Sep-2002 08:25 pm (UTC) - Re:
Ah, I see you read the draft of this that LJ ate for dinner.

That is the truth. I a lot of ways, they did succeed. We still live in fear. Or we react withpout thinking.
10th-Sep-2002 10:01 pm (UTC) - Re:
I will walk the streets as I always do, and live my life as usual. I will go to New Years celebrations ect. without fear of the fucking bastards.I will back this government in whatever way it is necessary to bring these killers to justice.
11th-Sep-2002 01:59 am (UTC)
I will support my government in a quest for justice. I just will try and keep from feeling that we're going more for vengence.
11th-Sep-2002 06:26 am (UTC) - Re:
I feel very old testament about this entire matter. For the ones that did this and the ones that applaud this, I say stone em back to the stone age.I'll turn New Testament after this is over.
11th-Sep-2002 01:34 am (UTC)
*hugs* you put what i was thinking very eloquently James .

I just hope i survive the next day or so , all the reshashing and reopening of wounds only scabbed over for what im afriad isnt really remebering the victims or the loss but to make somone i have no respect for look like a real pResident ....

11th-Sep-2002 01:54 am (UTC) - Re:
I'd agree with you on all counts. There's a huge difference between remembering the dead and using the dead to further an unpopular political agenda. I hate that. I remember thinking last year around this time that nothing good would come of this. *sighs*

*hugs* Take care today. even if there isn't a repeat performance, I have a horrible feeling that people are going to act like assholes anyway.

James
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